Merry Christmas

Christmas
used to be one of my favourite festival
which celebrate the born of Jesus Christ
Our Savior, from the Almighty Lord.

When there's Christmas
the tree is put up with
various colour of bells and adornment.

When there's Christmas
we sing and worship
we share the laughter and joy.

When there's Christmas
There's always a little dream
from the kids like me
imagining if there is a real Santa
and waiting for his pressie.

But wait,
what is Christmas abt without Jesus in our heart?

Christmas is the greatest gift
from heaven of God's Son given for free.
We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
We shall praise Him.

[ For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast. Ephesians 2:8-9 ]

A Ride

I never miss any of your single shadow
but you let me go.

My tears never cease with any reason
but you leave without any single reason

I was force to cope it in this very season,
with a little medicine. 

I know the sky is grey
but I never want anyone to put it with some rain.

Whispering

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Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are.

When I gaze at the sky,
it is freckled with thousands of twinkling stars
appears like a carpet of glittering diamonds.

I dont care
it whether shine or dim
but I just long for a little moment
which bind us together.

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are?

Because of you - KC

I will not make
the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
cause my heart so much misery .

I will not break
the way you did,
you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
to never let it get that far.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don't get hurt.

Because of you
I find it hard to trust
not only me,
but everyone around me.

Because of you,
I am afraid
because I lose my way
and it's not too long before you point it out.

I cannot cry
because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
a smile, a laugh every day of my life.
My heart can't possibly break
when it wasn't even whole to start with .

I never thought of anyone
when I lean on you
I tried my hardest
just to forget everything.

Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty.
Because of you,
I am afraid.

*******

This is what actually speak out something.

There's never an ending for a true friendship

'How amazing two strangers become the best of friends'.

I'm nt going to be sad
when the best of friends become two strangers,
because this is not going to happen in my life.

I just couldn't bear it.
I do cherish my besttie alot
because I don't want to lose anyone of them in my life.

At some point,
you've to realise that
some people can stay in your heart,
but not your life.

Nevermind, if you're going to forget me.
Thence, I'll never forget you,
absolutely a no,
for the traces that you left
in my heart.

Back to normal

11.12.2011 Saturday

Sometimes
I hate myself
for flying too far
from the place where I ought to stay.

I used to be happy
at somewhere, out there.
But then,
I was like trading it
with bruises and wounds.

Dear all,
I get back today.
I'm happy to be with you all.
I crave for my normal routine
and the very ordinary ME.

Bridegrooms are beautiful

It takes a solemn oath
to walk into church
to make a promise verbally
to hold her gently
to hug her tightly
to kiss her sweetly.

It takes some time
to meet the mr right
to give him our hand
and trust him thoroughly.

Girls heart are fragile
handle it with care.
We do believe in promises
doesn't mean we're irrational.
But,
we value it
and choose to believe
the happy ever after ending
like the fairy tales?

Hmmm

I remember

Smile is a curve that sets everything straight.
Yes, it is. Perhaps.

But, it does not set my nerves to become straight.

Breaking dawn

The show begin.
It somehow begin like this.
But the one tht sat beside me is not you.

*ILikeYou*

A little from me

Sometimes,
we have to be a lil' more independant,
because we're not going to pour any expectation,
into something uncertain.

If you're cold,
put your hands around your neck,
it's more than enough to make ourself warm.
Never expect anyone to hold you.

If you gotta go alone,
go ahead.
Never expect anyone to walk with you
go ahead and leave yourself from jeopardy.

Please, never hold me,
unless you are prepare to bear everything with me.

Please, never hold me,
if you make it for the pleasure of breaking a promise.

Please, never hold me,
before I give it all without conserving anything.

You'll know,
how easy to gain my trust,
because I've only the first line of defence
which you know it's not a big deal to penetrate into it.

Today

The stars shine,
the night bind.
The clock ticks,
the owl flies.

Staring at the merciless screen,
waiting for no reply,
getting to bed with the reason why,
heading to the place, called street no. 9.

Last goodbye

Two am and the rain is falling
Here we are
at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me.

Try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can make you see it through
That's something only love can do.

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust.

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance.
To let this be our last goodbye.

*********

How long do I need
to wipe the shining sun?
How could I forget your arms
that used to give me trust?
Yes, I shall do my part.
Learn to start.

Happy graduation!

04.11.2011 Friday

It's graduation day!
and I don't seem extremely happy as what I thought.
Sorry, Im so bad last time.
Frankly, I miss it.

To be continue ... ...

Ache without perceives

Life is so weak,
until we don't even know,
who are the one that gonna leave us like without any sign.

BBC states:
There were three apples that changed the world.
One deceived Eve, one fell on Newton and the third was offered to the world, half bitten by Steve Jobs.

Steve Jobs leave the world.
It is pretty sad because of his brilliant mind and contribution to the world.
In fact, I don't really know how sad it was,
until I know someone around me, leave, forever.

A chill runs down my spine and I was frozen in terror.
When I reminisced, the man tht came into my life,
was like a passenger, came then leave, and gone forever.

A road to a friend’s house is never long.

Someone to face the day with
make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
even at my worst, I'm best with you.

We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're looking out for me
It's so good to have you around.

You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet,
you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
Cause you keep my feet on the ground.

"What is a friend? A single soul, dwelling in two bodies" - Aristotle

They said,
a person who has found a faithful friend,
has found a priceless treasure.

If all my friends were to jump off a bridge,
I wouldn’t jump with them,
I’d be at the bottom to catch them.

Rejuvenate.

Jesus:" Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God."
[ Matthew 4:4 ]



He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
[ Psalm 40:2 ]

The middle of September

When I was small,
and christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Dont ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall,
and christmas trees are small,
And you dont ask the time of day.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
The day we speak a lot all the way till the crack of dawn.

We gotta cherish every single moment,
because when it passed,
it don't seems to hold long.

How funny I thought we used to walk along with the same pace
but actually we don't.
Nevermind, I gonna find my lemon tree very very soon.

Fade away

I learned from the past
Not everything lasts
I understand that now
Everything changed.

I want to said something
but you're not looking my way
I think I lost my mind
back there and then let my feeling go.

When someone walked away
you'll survive somehow
Though there are regrets
you've to learn to forget
Because when it gone
You have to be strong.

Once touched by pain
You're not the same
But time can heal your wound again
So let the clouds that bring you down fade away.

Fly me to the moon
and let me play among the stars
let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars.

September

Sunday 05.09.2011 12:20am

And HELLO SEPTEMBER!
I may not have a good start at Sept,
but I believe,
I'll end up this month with joy and filled with... :)

Well, it's a tiresome day and week.
A week for study over 12 hours per day,
and this explain why my bloggy was like full of dust.
Ha! and I think it is good one.
I do really enjoy studying life like this,
no suffer and nothing special,
just focus on my STUDY.

Erm, I hit history tht used to make me frusfrated for 2 years.
So now, how is your other science subjects and beloved add mths?
We'll see, I gonna strive hard, pray hard and strive hard again.
Give UHM !!

Today is tiresome.
super super duper exhausted.
why why why?

To be continue ...

Short Notes

Thursday 8:58pm

HEH! It has been a long time, I don't jot down my daily life.
Recently, just pouring out anything deep inside.
Or basically, might doing something unavailable.

Though most of my school teacher was lousy, ( I'm sorry to say tht )
but I don't deny tht I still met up some awesome teacher!
Initially, 'most' is used for the one and only,
but yeah, I wanto say tht,
I met many 'most' awesome teacher.

And tday, of course I'm not going to introduce them one by one,
but I've to share tht, Mr Low was a very very very good teacher.

In my perspective,
his teaching might be slow,
but all in all, what he taught was cleared enough for me.
If I still failed, it's actually my fault.
Then, he might seems 'talk ' more than teach,
but yet, I still enjoy very much.

All the way in his teaching,
he tried to inspire everyone in study,
share the best way to become a top student and the correct way to study.
I don't really know how to praise him,
but I know he made me laugh in his class every week,
the relaxing way to study and yet 100% of input.
he motivates me and I love him very much.

No matter what I get for my result,
just not to break Delta's record - being the only student who failed in AM.

Give Uhm!!!
Hey, zaboh, you left only 80 days !!
And you ought to be more alert thn ANYONE,
times FLIES !!

Home sweet home 07'

I ramble along the path
with such slow pace.
I'm going a place,
where away from litany of complaints,
enjoy the leisure pace of life,
where pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Too often being alone,
but it don't sounds like I like this way
and I'm going home now,
back to the place where I belong,
where the love has always been enough for me.

Staring out into the night,
trying to hide the pain under my thigh.
I can't afford with the brittle laugh anymore,

And, I just want to go home,
place where I could shed my tears and share my laughs
back to the place where I belong.
Yet, I have to leave.

Lessons of Love

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects,
always trusts,
always hopes,
always perseveres.
Love never fails.

[ Corinthians 13: 4-8 ]

True love does not come by finding the perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Today, someone had taught me,
there is no such thing as conditional love.
Love is either unconditional or it's no love.
You might like someone conditional on their personality or behavior,
bt love accepts no boundaries.
For love has no cause, it comes from God.
Do remember, there's no secured love other than love of Jesus toward us. So, we don't expect in any return but bound to love everyone.
The only reason is, we love God beyond them, we love them because of God.

Prepare yourself to love God.
There are countless ways to love Him.
Learn to love Him, it is our priority and doesn't seems easy.

It's not luck but fade.

Do you hear me
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, I'm trying.

Yes, I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard.

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair.

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now.

Those days we spent out all night
Has it all gone to waste?

Around 5 years,
seperate and then encounter.
The years go by and time just seems to fly,
but the memories remain.

Endlessly,
I glimpse at the green point.
Constantly,
I stop myself frm sailing to you.

Echoes of the rainbow

" Softly sighs of the rainbow
Misty songs of old
Flowing by the skyline
My secret lullaby

Softly sighs of the rainbow
Stories seldom told
Flowing by the skyline
My songs never rhyme "

Label: soothing, depressive, melodious

It's too much.

Yes, we hate rumors.

What are words?

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see.

How every single promise I keep
because what kind of guy would I be?
If I was to leave when you need me most.

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them?
What are words
If they're only for good times
then they don't?

When it's love,
Yeah, you say them out loud.
Those words, they never go away
They live on, even when we're gone.

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be standing right beside her tonight.

Every single promise I keep
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close.
- Chris Medina

What are words
if you say them but you don't mean them?
What are promise
if someone make it for the pleasure of breaking them?

No, I believe, I have to believe
promises and pie crusts are not made to be broken.
Please, prove to me,
I never wanted to fall again,
I was wounded.

For every promise, there is a price to pay?
Don't ever make any oath if you cannot deliver.

A promise is a cloud, fulfillment is rain.

It's aint a fairy tale, so I choose to put a lil' expectation for it's ending.

Footprints

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: One belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest time in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. " Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me. "

The Lord replied, " My son, My precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you only see one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you. "

- story ended -

There are countless ways to love God. Live in the moment and look forward to eternity with God. He cares everyone and He never forsake us. Only we, humans who leave him. Response your Love to Him. Now that's a great present.

Notes

12.07.2011 Tuesday

Hello, bloggy.
I visit you tday again.

Glad tht you are here,
at least I can still simply mumbling
or even express some litle thing,
and I don't burst like dunnoe wht.

Just like tht.
I will be still and I shall be still,
no matter what.

It's actually our action
to show tht we entrust ourself to Him.
I am learning to do so, and I really believe,
nothing is imposible in Him.

Today's lesson,
Do not simply ruin your mood,
because it meant tht you've wasted a great day given by God.

Jia you jiayou!!!

Happy 17th B'day

Lastly, I thank God for everything.
I do nothing but only sins,
and tday He is still here forgiving me,
watching me and love me.

Hmm, and this is the only year,
I did not receive any call from him
and the same, not any call frm her.
Hmm, nevermind.

One Team

Fellows:

A TEAM means

Together Everyone Achieves More

This late night

29.04.2011 Friday

Hmm, April was not an easy month for me.
I did realise tht
I've been staying up till late night for 3 weeks.
Nt even one night can rest properly.

So far, I'm still busy as usual.
Having marathon's tuition for the whole day and ton's of activities.
I just want to fill up my time with everything,
strive for works
to forget abt the match, the faces and speech.

And, having technical rehearsal today.
Almost crumble in a sudden when I discover everything was still undone yet.

Yes, I'm not sensible enough,
not having lunch or dinner on time
and continue this habit for a few days.
Eventually, you see, stomach seems wrangling -- gastric.
Ain't a good experience.

Now cooking alone, having supper.
And you can see my hand is shivering.
True, I don't exaggerate.

And today, brother told me,
that we're humans, bound to have weaknesses.
This was the reason why we have brothers and sisters in Christ
to help us when we're in need of aid.
So, I will cheer up and ready to conquer every problem in Lord.
He will ride with me because He loves everyone.

Easter Evangelical Meeting

24.4.2011 Sunday

Because we believe !
and we've done our job today.

In christ,
nothing is impossible.

I cherish the moment
when brothers and sisters work and serve the LORD together.
Live band, singing and drama.

Nothing is perfect,
included the P.A system tht I incharged.
But I knw the best thing is
the spirit tht link us together to work in a team.

Glory to God in highest.

Because of your great compassion you did not abandon them in the desert. By day the pillar of cloud did not cease to guide them on their path, nor the pillar of fire by night to shine on the way they were to take. You gave your good Spirit to instruct them.
[ Nehemiah 9:19 ]