Because of you - KC

I will not make
the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
cause my heart so much misery .

I will not break
the way you did,
you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
to never let it get that far.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don't get hurt.

Because of you
I find it hard to trust
not only me,
but everyone around me.

Because of you,
I am afraid
because I lose my way
and it's not too long before you point it out.

I cannot cry
because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
a smile, a laugh every day of my life.
My heart can't possibly break
when it wasn't even whole to start with .

I never thought of anyone
when I lean on you
I tried my hardest
just to forget everything.

Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty.
Because of you,
I am afraid.

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This is what actually speak out something.