Fades.

They said you know you've hurt a Cancer

when they run

cut you off

and disappear from your life

all of a sudden. 

I think this is just so true. 

I put my guards up and wall high

because I know myself too well

Being an all or nothing person

is always stuck in between either caring too much

or not at all.

Relationship

Friends
Human.

My biggest fear is 

making wrong choices when it comes to 

trusting people.

It takes me so much courage

to allow a person to understand bits by bits

but I didn't understand why it often ends up

I get a lesson in life?

/

Please.

If you could recall how you ever met me.

I am the one that doesn't force a relationship at all.

I mean AT ALL.

I get so nervous 

when people tend to attach with me

getting closer steps by steps

because I have learned 

the worst pain is getting hurt by a person

you explain your pain to.

It took me so much courage 

to take my shell off

and tell you, 

I have hard feelings. 

/

I wonder if I'm made to be understanding

not to be understood.

If you're able to see how my heart bleed,

how I picked up all the broken pieces bits by bits,

just to fix a smile on myself

so that I could give all I have to the person

I ever appreciate.

You know
how much effort it takes. 

/

I hate to see pain and suffering in others.

With every bit of kindness, I ever received

I want to give it 10 times harder back to you

If you know me

I never ask for payback. 

I didn't ask for more

I just need your little appreciation

and that's it.

I tolerate

I understand

I give

/

But 

when you threw me in a sense
where I question myself

why am I not enough.

How could you express in a language

where I am so replaceable 

It questions me 

why people take my kindness for weakness

Why I am so vulnerable.

/

Please.

If you ever understand me.

I am the one that doesn't ask for more.

I don't even need to be anyone's priority

/

I have been taught
to not let anything or any person
to stop me from being a better person.

I have the personality
that can always pick up whatever mood
you're in
and feel the same way within minutes.

For every relationship
that I go for depth
I give all

/

I am just a petite lady
with a fragile heart.