It has been a mess.
A small recap for my last day of 2019.
Thank you Jeg, my favourite RPM instructor.
That brought me all around for RPM tour.
4RPM a day.
0745 CHI DAMEN
0945 EMPIRE FF
1245 CURVE FF
2000 SCM FF
It has been a mess.
But, today was good.
I spent my day with sweats and laughters
without regrets.
/
It was a mess
and I am so surprised.
I was always an ALL-OR-NOTHING person.
One of the cons of being an introvert
is feeling extremely hard
to start a conversation.
You didn't know how many thousands
of thoughts flew by
just by trying to say HI or BYE.
Having favor staying in a comfort zone
often meant I will only stick around
with people that I am familiar with.
You either hate me
hate my coolest bitch face I'm sorry
or
You either love me
for my warm and kindness
Yes, I am sorry
I act so accordingly.
Because I am too tired
to fake a smile to people who are toxic
One of the biggest lesson I ever learned
is to not force any relationship
If you want to go, go.
/
It was a mess.
In a world full of mess,
and painful souls.
Forgive the people
who are so pain deep inside them
so they want to pull you down.
People who like to talk back
to stab a person
I was at a point
been disappointed
now I'm just like
'wow, again?'
Ok, fine.
2020
I gotta fix myself up.
/
It was a mess,
but this mess gonna end.
