Selflove

Let go.

Let go to give yourself peace of mind.

Let go because whatever is meant to be

will be.

I've cried over people

only to realize that losing them was better for me

in the long run.

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I didn't want to try.

I didn't want to play games.

It's not about

I'm not willing to take the risk.

It's about I am guaranteed to get the ache

again

for the person that doesn't value my soul.

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I wanted to love fiercely again

to love
 to give it all again

but
I fear pain.

/

I want to love the man who brags about me

when I'm not around

just like how I'd brag of him.

I want to love the man

who makes it safe to lay on his chest

while he strokes my hair

when I had a bad day

just like how I want to be

the most supportive person for his battle.

I want to love a person

that knowing my inner beauty is irreplaceable

because my skin will fade.

I want to love a person

who I can laugh with play with

and not bored with it

and we love each other so much

that we really make the days count.

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Please do not awaken my love

with no intention of loving me.

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I didn't want to be

just an option to someone

who just wants to fill his emptiness

This is why I have to learn

to hold back.

To stop putting so much effort

into someone who treats me

good in a day

but treats me like I never exist

the other day.

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Dear heavenly Father,

I know you have taught me to wait.

I still believe

there is another person like me

that treasure love

loyalty

and kindness.